This has kept me awake on multiple occasions for too many years. Why do we put this type of stuff off? Push it away, try to forget about it? It sits there in the back of your mind every minute of every day.
You try to tell yourself it isn’t a big deal, but it is. It is there and it eats away at your peace of mind. It’s like a constant drip of a faucet or a big exam you need to study for and keep putting off.
This past week I addressed a conflict/misunderstanding that has been at the forefront of my heart and mind for years. And do you know what happened? The words came out, “I am sorry, can we start over?” And it felt like a dam was broken. It was wonderful!
Why hadn’t I done it years ago? Maybe I didn’t want to… I didn’t know how to… I really don’t know.
It was like I knew I should, and I knew I would, but I just didn’t. For years I didn’t, and for years I hurt.
How very deep some hurts go. Too deep. But I have found the beginning of healing and forgiveness, and how wonderful it is!
Do you have any unresolved conflict/misunderstandings/hurts? Something that plagues your heart and spirit? Something you know, that you know, that you know, needs to be resolved and you just keep putting it off?
May I humbly offer that having been both places… life is much, much brighter over here. On this side, the side of letting go, extending forgiveness and finding beautiful life-giving healing.